Monday, February 10, 2003
np: in a light i've seen..
"caroling"
i think i felt the new year before i saw it
the bed was empty as it always is
sleeping on the sofa, i sing to you
the body of the man i knew i loved
but something in the way you were lying
you looked a lot more peaceful than before
something in the weight upon your shoulders
something you had tried, but couldn't shake
it's only suicide
cos you decided not to fight
can you tell me why
in the morning light
you look so bright
my darling, how is it there?
twenty some years i was waiting
and i don't know why you gave up
i just took to waking up alone
and that never seemed to change
i could've blamed it on the fighting
or the ways you were remembering
i could hold a lot of things responsible
but i can't get over loving you
it's only suicide
cos you decided not to fight
can you tell me why
in the morning light
you look so bright
my darling, how is it there?
so now i wake up in the morning
walk the house and raise the ghosts
the thoughts of you still completely
fill the halls and rooms and posts
i guess i'll never know exactly
what it is that hurt you most
cos i could never pull you near
and now i'm just your host.
it's only suicide
cos i decided not to fight
can you tell me why
in the morning light
these rooms can still feel bright
my darling, why'd you go?
my darling, how was i to know?
my darling, why'd you go?
